2 Down, 1 to go....

My first blog post was all about my SUMMER MILESTONES....
1. Turn 35 (check)
2. Celebrate our ten year anniversary (check)
3. Make an appointment for a mammogram......
Well, I did attempt to make an appointment at the very beginning of JULY. The phone began ringing, I started to think about what I needed to say, tears began to flow and I hung up. I told Jeramie, a few family members, and a couple of very close friends about the failed phone call. I even had a couple of them offer to call for me, go with me, watch the kids during my appointment, etc......still, no phone call was made to make an appointment.
Last Thursday evening we hosted our small group Bible Study and at the end everyone was given the opportunity to share prayer requests. Jeramie was out of town, but most of our group was present (including 3 men, so I was hesitant to speak up) I shared with our group that I was having an extremely difficult time making my appointment. My friend Corinne asked me what it was that I was afraid of and I did not have an answer. Am I afraid of the process or the results or is it something else entirely? I honestly do not know the answer.
The very next day I had a text from Jessica, "Did you make your appointment? I'm praying for you!" I also had an email from Stephanie telling me that she understands my fear and how it seems to be paralyzing me and that she was praying for me.... still, no phone call was made to make the appointment.
Yesterday Jessica texted me again, "Did you make an appointment yet?" NOPE, I sure had not, but I told her I would call that afternoon.... I didn't call.
TODAY I called my Dr.'s office and I ended up talking to one of the friendliest and most understanding people I have ever come across while making a Dr. appointment. There were no tears and my appointment is officially on the books for October 1st.
I called Jeramie and let him know that I had made the appointment and texted Jessica so she would STOP texting me :)
I am sure that there are some people who think I'm being dramatic about making an appointment in the first place... it's just a phone call, right? I know that making a Dr. appointment is something that millions of people do every single day. This was difficult for me though and definitely was a milestone all on it's own..... one that I was not "counting" while writing about milestones a couple of months ago.
I know that God has a plan and a dream for my life. He knew that this phone call would take me 5 weeks and He has made certain that I am surrounded by people who love and care for me. I now have to wait another 6 weeks until my appointment, however, I will not dwell on it. Next summer when I pick up the phone to make the exact same phone call, I'm sure it will be much easier!
"For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you." Isaiah 41:13